All of the sudden....

I got a reply from Star Education Fund...(I should be very happy.....)
They shortlisted me for interview............(i should be glad.....)
They offered me out of Penang.................( smth i always wanted.....)
But....
Now that i look at it..... it doesn't feel rite....
They offered a Diploma course in RIMA college which is in kl..... have ANYONE ever heard of it??? Surely malay dominated....
so how?? still go for it??

one part of my mind is saying... "A schlolarship is still a scholarship n of course ppl should be happy to receive it... I shall do my best and make it right thru!!!"

the other part will say... " if i were to calculate properly, assuming the cost of living here is negligible, the cost of living there will be more than doing my whole Diploma course here..... n its not the fees of the Diploma that will kill me but the fees of the Degree.... so the scholarship actually doesnt reali play a big role.... if they extend the scholarship to degree means no prob d la... but will they ever do that???

Estimated cost of living in KL for a marcuslim : RM1,000 per month
so.... RM1,000 x 12(months) x 3(years)
=RM36,000
(thats almost double of the cost of a Diploma in INTI which is RM19k oni)

.....BUT!!!

If the scholarship continues on.... i will oni need pay for the cost of living then...
RM36,000 + RM24,000(for2 more years)
=RM60,000 ...........................which is exactly enuf from the budget my mum gave me...RM60k

If the scholarship DOES NOT continue.... i need pay for the cost of livin and also the fees of the Degree ON MY OWN which is even MORE!!!(estimated RM50k for a degree)
meaning RM60,000+RM50,000=RM110,000........... which is ABSOLUTELY NOT affordable for my family... (double my family's budget on me tertiary edu)

By then the onli thing left to do when that a rises is come back here n continue my degree here in Penang.... at the end of the day.... wats all my struggle there for??? juz so i can waste my parents money and waste another year in Inti (if take diploma in inti, we get a jump start n automatically be on 2nd year d....) BOTH TIME N MONEY WASTED!!! even worst!!


N so i'm the indecisive Marcuslim again... juz when i decided on going to inti d.... this HAS to happen.... the interview is on 24th of April so when will i get the results..? probably a couple of weeks later.... then how about my INTI??? INTI punya intake is at 5th of May... means i have to register there be4 that date.... so wat do i do???

Option no. 1
wait for the reply form RIMA n dun go INTI...

Option no.2
go register at INTI n pay like RM3k for the 1st semester and then go for the RIMA thing if i'm called...

Option no.3
juz continue my plan in INTI n forget about the RIMA thing...


SHIT.... i hate decision makings..... izzit juz me or do i juz think too much...